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Post by Admin on Dec 15, 2013 15:50:16 GMT
Cricket is not a real person, but she could be a combination of many people. She is depressed much of the time and has a hard time believing in herself. You can help her through encouraging words, but a word or warning, she has a very strong negative voice and has trouble making changes.
Here is post one for Cricket:
I went to work the other day and all I heard was negative information. People that were sarcastic and mean. Really? I mean if you don't have anything nice to say why say anything? I have enough negative stuff going on in my head. Sheesh!! People suck!! Everyone has an opinion about someone or something. Ugh! Just once I would have liked to have heard someone complimenting someone else, but no, just negative, negative. No wonder the moral is low at the office. I tired to smile at others, but they just kind of looked at me as if I had some sort of pitiful disease. I am sure they look down on me as well. I never get encouragement from others, no inspiration, just short little smerkish smiles, like no one really cares, or wants to be bothered. It seems they only talk to each other when they complain or try to one up themselves. I stay quiet. I wish I could make things better, but people don't seem to want to change.
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Post by Post Two Cricket on Dec 22, 2013 13:47:37 GMT
Oh life is so unfair and I just don't know what to do! People are so mean, and everyone wants to pull me down. I fear I cannot handle this much longer. I don't know what to do to survive all this stuff. People at work are mean and I don't have anyone to talk to. I don't know how to do this life. I am not sure how I am going to make it next year. It is just all so hard.
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Post by Cricket on Dec 28, 2013 15:44:39 GMT
What to do when life is hard? Where does one turn? How does one understand all of this stuff? I have to work through some hard areas and move on in life. I am very scared that I will not be able to move forward and yet I must move on.
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Post by Cricket on Jan 6, 2014 12:17:22 GMT
You know it gets to where I just don't want to go on some days. I do not understand why life is so cruel. I feel I am just not cut out for this gig. I guess I thought that my life would pretty much be ok, but so many people have been mean, or taken advantage of my good nature. I guess I am naive. I guess I thought that if I do good I would get good. I guess I really never learned how to fight in this life. I heard someone say that everything you need to learn in life you can learn from nature, well nature is cruel. Eat or be eaten. I am not sure I know how to be a predator. I don't want to be nasty to others, but do I have "use me" printed on my forehead? Am I seen as naive to others? Am I too simple, too complacent to live in this world? How do I survive? How do I learn to fight? How can I make changes so that I am not trampled on or used up?
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Post by Cricket on Jan 24, 2014 17:04:36 GMT
I am full of hate today. I hate life. I hate people. I love my animals. but pretty much everything else I hate. I see no purpose to anything. I had wanted to be spiritual at one time, but now I see no point to that either. I think people who hate life should not be forced to continue to suffer. Maybe I am just screwed up in the head, but I am so tired of feeling as if I have failed and NOTHING really matters. I want it to matter, but it just doesn't. I see a lot of smiling happy people, but I am not one of them. Did I live my life wrong? Did I make mistakes I cannot correct? Did I take bad advice from others? Did I try to fool myself into a belief system that wasn't real? Have I been a fool all along? I don't get life. I just don't.
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Post by Admin on Jan 27, 2014 1:43:14 GMT
When we feel down in life, we must come back up. Cognitive therapy can help you to be more mindful of your thinking and make changes so that you don't spin into a downward spiral known as depression. Other things that can help include exercise,music, relaxation techniques,medication, and a check to make sure hormones are not out of balance as well as the thyroid.
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Post by Cricket on Jan 28, 2014 12:52:48 GMT
I can't seem to stop the thoughts in my head. I get so afraid at times. I don't get how to do life. I feel so worthless at times. I just think I don't understand this whole thing. I try to relax and I get scared again. I feel guilty if I relax, like I should be doing something else, but I don't know what it is. I am sure I am the only one who feels this way. Everyone else is functioning well and happy and dealing with life and stress. But me, I am just this big lump that doesn't know what to do with herself. Instead of sitting here I should be solving world poverty or something. I should be somebody, I should be trying new things. I should be getting up and getting out, but then the whole thing just exhausts me all over again. I guess I could clean house for today and give some money to a good charity for now.
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Post by Cricket on Feb 6, 2014 12:44:35 GMT
I get tired of feeling scared. I mean wicked scared. How do people do it? How do people function? I am afraid of failing, afraid the mean people will take over, afraid I will be crushed in the midst of it all. So I sit and stare. I do nothing so I don't have to feel the fear so much. I want to function, but I feel as if I don't know how. I can't stay in this fearful place. I can't just cover my head and hope it will go away. I have to get up and show up. I have to try and take chances. I have to confront those who want to crush me. I have to find the courage to go on. I have to find a way to LIVE.
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Post by Cricket on Mar 6, 2014 12:53:29 GMT
I have not written for awhile and you may know that it is because I have been struggling with depression. I really hate it. I hear my own thoughts telling me I am worthless, that I will fail and then it seems like I do and the whole pattern starts all over again. So you know I think that I wish there were a "quick check out button". Why does life have to be such a struggle? I am not saying I should have wine and roses everyday, but I would like to at least feel productive and functional. It may be my brain, my brain unlike other brains seems to be less functional in some way and that makes me angry. I can see what I want to do, I can feel what it would be like to accomplish it, but then I can't seem to go forward and I get real upset. I wish someone would help me, but there is no one there. It is a cycle I seem to fight often. I think of a saying a friend said to me, " Don't let what you can't do, stop you from what you can do". It helps. I have to tune my mind each day, and I am angry that I cannot be a "full functioning" person, but my mind just doesn't seem to always function at an optimum level. Then I feel like an outcast, a loser, like I don't really belong here, like I can't really DO this thing called life. So I work on scaling back and getting up and getting on. I guess it is what we all need to do, do our best and forget the rest.
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Post by vmill on Mar 7, 2014 2:23:53 GMT
Holy cow Cricket, This sounds like my life. I struggle daily with the same thoughts. I feel like the more I do I get kicked back down, but I do know in my head I have came along way. I get better and happier everyday. I have to stay out of my head to do this and it's very hard to do. The depression does not help either, so I find if I stay busy, stay sober, and take my meds I am so much better off. My thoughts can really beat me down at times, so I train myself to fight my demons. To stay out of my lonely little head. Remember them demons are monster, and they are working out every minute to beat you, so you need to work at all time to stay on top.
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Post by Cricket on Mar 31, 2014 13:30:10 GMT
I know I have to work on staying out of the head and going forward. I seem to have nasty messages to myself. I guess I compare myself to others and then I feel like such a loser. So many things in life I feel I did wrong and now I have to live with a messed up life. Of course I want more. I am working on being more on the inside so that I don't compare myself to things on the outside that I think I should be or have. Acceptance, Good friends, and Gratitude seem to help me so I don't slip into the abyss of depression.
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Post by Cricket on Apr 9, 2014 11:01:00 GMT
Uh boy, it has been a tough week. I just can't seem to stay positive. Maybe medication would help. You know the saying, "Better living through chemistry?" I am tired and tired of feeling tired. So what is the problem now? I am not who I want to be, or how I want to be. I just feel a failure at life and I am tired of the same s*&% but different day. So I ask myself what do I want? And the answer is I want to be free of fear. I want to be able to face each day, no matter what and do my best and help others and myself and feel ok. But I feel angry and cheated and often hateful. And then depressed. I get overwhelmed with too much to do and too little time. I have trouble feeling good about myself, and then I feel anxious and it seems to be a vicious cycle. Who are those people who are successful? They smile at me and seem capable and competent. I keep trying, but I don't feel I can reach the peak. I wonder, what is my best? But I don't think it is ever good enough. My mind feels scattered, and I am not very proud of anything I have done. I feel a bit of a mess and then I am ashamed. I know I have to keep trying, but some days I just feel tired of it all.
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Post by Admin on Apr 9, 2014 11:15:08 GMT
Well what do you do when life seems to be pulling at you and you are feeling just too tired of it all to respond? You probably know that the depression can have its own inertia, meaning if you are down you could find yourself in a deeper hole. So one way is to spend about 15 minutes and get all the bad you can, feel real sorry for yourself and let it all go, let it be really bad. What eventually happens is you bottom out when you only look at the bad stuff. It is when you are in conflict between good and bad that depression becomes a problem. You feel you are here, but want to be there. If you are going to be depressed, then allow yourself to think ONLY of the bad and make no comparison. Not that easy is it? How can you feel only bad? You can't really do that because you are always making comparisons to what you think things should be like. If you can accept and love yourself for your part on this planet then you can start feeling purpose and value in life and we all have purpose and value, because we are here. Be in the moment and be thankful. Here is a good thought for your day: You’re allowed. by Brigitte You don’t need anyone’s affection or approval in order to be good enough. When someone rejects or abandons or judges you, it isn’t actually about you. It’s about them and their own insecurities, limitations, and needs, and you don’t have to internalize that. Your worth isn’t contingent upon other people’s acceptance of you — it’s something inherent. You exist, and therefore, you matter. You’re allowed to voice your thoughts and feelings. You’re allowed to assert your needs and take up space. You’re allowed to hold onto the truth that who you are is exactly enough. And you’re allowed to remove anyone from your life who makes you feel otherwise. - Daniell Koepke Source: internal-acceptance-movement.tumblr.com/Brigitte | April 2, 2014 at 12:57 pm | URL: wp.me/p449Bm-Iq |
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Post by Admin on Dec 20, 2014 13:49:18 GMT
It is true that life can be overwhelming, but there are many good things as well. What we dwell on can consume us. Take one step at a time, and cut down on the Blame and Shame. Do something you know you enjoy and then go help someone else. Be powerful where you know you can be and start working in small areas that you want to improve. We cannot be all things to all people. So too, we cannot be all things to ourselves. Be your best and forget the rest for at least awhile. It is great that you want to do many things and that you keep on trying, but high expectations can lead to feelings of failure that can pull you into a dark abyss and keep you stuck. Loving feelings can help you feel more productive and establish a feeling of accomplishment. Be grateful for who you are. Take good care of you, exercise, eat well, and do things that demonstrate honor yourself and your body. Do something for someone else so you can appreciate your value. It is great to strive for more, to do better and be better, but life is work and struggle. When you know that there will be a battle each day, you may be able to let go of the high expectations and feel a greater appreciation for who you are and what you CAN do now. Give yourself a break and love yourself. I like this: www.cs.columbia.edu/~gongsu/desiderata_textonly.html. You may find other things that will help you focus on what is important and let go of the criticism. I am sure other people have ideas as well. A little saying is: " Don't let what you can't do stop you from what you can do". Go forward and be your best, be with people that love you and stand tall in all that you do. |
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