Depression is always a part of bipolar. Some say they do not have manic, only depression. Your lesson for today is to think about and write about how you know you are a little depressed or a lot depressed. Not what you do, but how you think, what are you feeling? Then as a result of the thoughts and feelings how do you act?
When I get depressed I feel as I am worthless, and everyone is mad at me. It's like I've did something wrong. I have very low esteem, and it's even worse if I am depressed. It makes me act like I don't what to have contact with any of my friends because I don't want to make them mad at me even though I've done nothing then I feel like they will get mad for me saying I'm sorry for the reasons I've thought up in my head. I get real lonely when I get depressed too.
Depression comes and goes. Those with Bipolar often have times of manic episodes in which they are impulsive and do such things as spend money, refuse to sleep, and act in other ways that are non-productive, but seem to be out of their control.
Depression can be clinical and usually is related to some condition. Bipolar may not really have a real "reason" it seems to be more in the make-up of the person and is often genetic. One can live with bipolar and function. You may want to look up Bipolar in Order to learn more.
It was a rough day at work. Found out that a woman was either running or walking near our property and our security guard doing his rounds came upon a man assaulting her. He detained the man until police arrived. Scary. I park nearby and in the mornings sometimes it's still dark when I arrive at work. I will carry my pepper spray now into the building. Not sure what I can do to feel safe except to think through likely scenarios and decide how I would react. I must be mindful of my surroundings.